I started the exercise program about a week and a half ago and so far that is going pretty well. It isn't too lofty a goal - I am not focusing on losing the baby fat (although that would be nice) or getting in great shape (also nice) - just looking for a mood boost. Some days it is only a 30 minute walk, but on other days I am getting in a 45 minute bike ride.
I think it was helping, but it clearly wasn't doing enough. I decided to take the next step and cut back on the junk food. I decided to get through just one day. I couldn't face longer than that without ingesting some of the good stuff.
Brad joined me and yesterday was the day. One day sans coffee, chocolate, ice cream, cookies, etc. I would have told you I don't have a large quantity of these things, but there is some every day. I might have a 12 oz double iced mocha (mmmm . . . mocha . . . ) in the morning and a 1/2 slice of chocolate mousse cake (from a local bakery - heaven!) in the evening. Perhaps a handful of chocolate chips to get me through the afternoon. Chronic sleep deprivation has left me going for the next best thing: sugar.
When Brad and I compared notes last night, it turns out we were both feeling very anxious all day. I went for a 20 minute bike ride to see my sister's soccer game and was so worried about falling and not being able to get my feet disconnected from the clipless pedals or that a car would not see us (I was towing the girls*) that I almost felt that I didn't have it in me to ride home. I was ready to call my OB to see if maybe my hormones were really messed up. I was imagining the rest of my life being changed by panic attacks.
Nope. Just withdrawal. It certainly confirms that I may be consuming a few too many empty calories. With that realization, I am going junk food free today too. I make no promises about tomorrow. My long term goal is to reduce the need / consumption of the
Brad, on the other hand, decided to join his coworkers as they celebrate Mocha Thursday. His text message to me this morning: "I am but a bag of chemicals. With the right additives - I run as smooth as a top."
* "the girls" Wow. I still can't believe I get to say that.
5 comments:
Um, I think your husband's message is hilarious!
I also think your hubby is funny. Good for you for trying to take some control, I feel exercise would be great for my mood also, but it is just SO hot right now, I don't feel like it.
I'm with Brad of course, but definetly I have withdrawls otherwise, maybe less would be good but I'm not a less girl, all or nothing for me. so are you camping, or maybe pictures and dinner tonight and maybe a swim?
I applaud you...I cannot make it through the day without caffeine. And, it's gotten worse, far worse since I became a mom of two! And sugar. Holy smokes. Good for you.
Very interesting. The anxiety being caused by withdrawl from chemicals isn't one I had considered before. Makes sense though. I have given up on a lot of the junk I used to consume although I've added a few others which I don't love but feel somewhat necessary right now. I'm still drinking caffeine because I can't imagine not.
I love your husbands text though. That's funny.
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