Wednesday, October 3, 2007

I chickened out

I didn't POAS this morning. I was afraid of bad news.

Last night, I tried the First Response Rapid Response sticks and came darn close to getting a negative and it made me realize that I am better off feeling like this might work because of the faint positives than taking another test this morning and not having a darker line and possibly freaking out over nothing.

The FRRR (rapid response - measures to 50 mIU/ml) was about as dark as the FRER (early response - measures to 25 mIU/ml) stick from 24 hours earlier. I am taking that as enough good news for now.

I may POAS before the blood draw tomorrow, I may not. Either way I will post my beta when I get it. The clinic usually calls with beta numbers before noon PDT.

12 comments:

Fertilize Me said...

hoping and sending you all of my positively gret beta number vibes

Foreverhopeful said...

I was a chicken too..so I SO understand. For me I just rather be in a state of hope and knowing there is a chance I'm pregnant than it being over. I so hope you get good news tomorrow. Hang in there... ! I'm here if you need a friend. Thinking of you.

Familyof2 said...

Deep breathes and baby steps. Can't wait to hear the news tomorrow!!!

Geohde said...

Kami, I think it is very brave, not chicken in the least to NOT poas.

I admire your resolve,

xx

J

Irish Girl said...

Thinking of you!!!!!!!!!

daisy said...

You are on my mind. My fingers are crossed! Oh Kami, I hope you get a good beta.
Daisy

REBECCA said...

Thank you so much for your comments on my blog. I've been thinking of you...and I agree with a previous poster...I think it's very brave to POAS and face the outcome. I'm sending all kinds of positive beta vibes for your bloodwork. I'll be checking in to see how things go. Hang in there...
Rebecca

Lori said...

On pins and needles, too.

Kim said...

Hoping for a good number on that beta tomorrow. So hoping this is the motherload. No pun intended!!

Good vibes all day tomorrow since you're like 3 or so times zones away.

Kim said...

Sending you positive beta vibes...

Pamela Jeanne said...

Also sending positive vibes your way!!

Taina said...

hoping! hoping! hoping!