I just reread my last blog post. I shouldn't have blogged while working . . .I was going toward a lot more detail about Brad's mom's (Kay is her name) passing that would have made sense of it being 'good news' in some ways. I am still going to spare the details, but wanted to say that I am not happy that she died. One of the things that will be better (eventually) is that we will no longer be waiting and hoping that she would change her mind and want to be a grandmother to our children. It is harder now because the hope is gone, but we will also now put it entirely behind us.
It is interesting how many aspects of my life I look at differently because of the use of donor eggs. Kay didn't want to be involved in our lives or our children's lives. In the past I might have left it at that. Now I think that just because Kay didn't want to be a grandparent shouldn't mean that our kids couldn't have someone fill that role. I am seriously considering shopping around for some surrogate grandparents. Who cares if it isn't someone who is one of our parents? I have great memories of time with my grandparents and it would be nice for our girls to have similar experiences.
Just for the record . . . my mom is alive and involved with the kids. We hope she lives another decade or two but she has heart problems and not sure that is likely.
Tonight we expect to get together with Belinda, our donor. We meant to before but plans got canceled. If we get together tonight then it will be the first time in over a year. It will be interesting to see how LB and Belinda get along. Will LB have some sixth-sense like connection? I will try to post how it goes.
The Act of Wanting
12 hours ago