Boy, does this feel familiar

The story of my life and so many other people dealing with infertility - lots of hope followed by crushing disappointment.

Granted, this is nothing like a failed cycle, but right now it is hitting pretty hard. Our trip to Turcs and Caicos was canceled. It happens - the customer pushed it out two weeks to a time when Brad couldn't go because of other commitments.

I was really holding on to that lifeline. I thought it would help me survive until Spring. I thought I would get caught up on my sleep. I thought the ocean and beach might help heal my heart a little.

I know it is just a trip, but I guess I built it up to be a retreat that would change my life.